Tuesday, November 10, 2009
Shinedown "If You Only Knew"
I'm hanging by a thread
The web I spin for you
If you only knew
I'd sacrifice my beating
Heart before I lose you
I still hold onto the letters
You returned
I swear I've lived and learned
[Chorus]
It's 4:03 and I can't sleep
Without you next to me I
Toss and turn like the sea
If I drown tonight, bring me
Back to life
Breathe your breath in me
The only thing that I still believe
In is you, if you only knew
If you only knew
How many times I counted
All the words that wen't wrong
If you only knew
How I refuse to let you go,
Even when you're gone
I don't regret any days I
Spent, nights we shared,
Or letters that I sent
[Chorus]
It's 4:03 and I can't sleep
Without you next to me I
Toss and turn like the sea
If I drown tonight, bring me
Back to life
Breathe your breath in me
The only thing that I still believe
In is you, if you only knew
If you only knew
I still hold onto the letters
You returned
You help me live and learn
[Chorus]
It's 4:03 and I can't sleep
Without you next to me I
Toss and turn like the sea
If I drown tonight, bring me
Back to life
Breathe your breath in me
The only thing that I still believe
In is you, believe in is you
I still believe in you
Oh, if you only knew
When Spammers Attack...on Twitter that is...
Spam, don't you just looove it? I know you dont. Because it's just plain annoying. Especially on twitter where you seem to think you have a lot of followers but it just turns out that those followers just want to fill up your count.
Wanna know some spammers? I got plennnnnty of them, and I may gotten all types ;)
Here's one: MAKE MONEY ON TWITTER! CLICK HERE!
That's just wrong, I mean, how can you get a job by just using twitter? That's nothing!
OMG I JUST GOT LAID OFF AND NOW I'M MAKING MILLIONS BY WORKING AT HOME!
Wrong...who works at home anyways? IMO, thats the laziest job in the world.
CHECK OUT MY NAUGHTY PROFILE
My goodness, bitches and sluts have no lives these days. All they want is someone to be looking at them showing their boobies.
Here's one many people looove to hate: The BRITNEY F*CKED Porn Bot
Ugh, it seems like every freakin hour this bot seems to appear, even if you reported as spam. But not to worry, to me it doesnt appear as much often as before.
Also, there are some twitterers who just wants to have LOTS OF FOLLOWERS, so they can gain their popularity. Thats stupid
Backstreet Boys "The Call"
Hi, it’s me… what’s up baby?
I’m sorry, listen, I’m gonna be late tonight so don’t stay up and wait for me, ok?”
“Where are you?”
“Say that again… you’re really dropping out… I think my battery must be low…
listen, if you can hear me, we’re going to a place nearby alright… gotta go!”
Let me tell you the story ‘bout the call that changed my destiny
Me and my boys went out just to end up in misery
Was about to go home when there she was standing in front of me
I said hi, I got a little place nearby, wanna go?
I should’ve said no, someone’s waiting for me
But I called my girl up and said…
CHORUS
Listen baby I’m sorry
Just wanna tell you don’t worry
I will be late, don’t stay up and wait for me
Say again… you’re dropping out… my battery is low
Just so you know, we’re going to a place nearby
Gotta go!
Now two years gone, nothing gets won
I can’t take it back, what’s done is done
One of her friends found out that she wasn’t my only one
And it eats me from inside that she’s not by my side
Just because I made that call and lied
CHORUS- repeat
Let me tell you the story ‘bout the call that changed my destiny
Me and my boys went out just to end up in misery
Was about to go home when there she was standing there in front of me
I said hi, I got a little place nearby… gotta go!
CHORUS– repea
It's October...OMG O_o
Sooo, Music, eh? I got to learn about musical notation, musical instrument families, the fabulous lives of Mozart, Beethoven, Bach, Handel, etc. It's fairly easy, but except I have to listen to a ton of music from Mozart and Beethoven. I have to memorize what instruments they used in the music. >_> sweet.
For those who didnt know, On the week of October 5th, I will be gone for the week to Ensenada...just for a vacay. My parents have been planning this since that one weekend we went to Ensenada, Temperatures are fairly pleasing, like around 70-something degrees or so. Lows around the 50s. Perfect beach weather, right? I prefer beach weather in the 80s, if I want that, I would go to San Felipe. I beileve my mom and dad are planning to go there at the 2nd half of the week. I already settled stuff with my professors and yes I will be taking my college stuff with me. Yes I will take my laptop with me as well! I will come back on either the 9th (Friday) or the morning of the 10th (Saturday).
On the week of October 12, it's OFFICIAL MIDTERM WEEK. Yeah, I got Beginning Algebra w/ Emphasis in Graphing, Political Science I, and Introduction to Information Systems midterms thrown in there that week. I may have a presentation for Music Appreciation & Listening class as well...not sure...will check.
I also have club activities thrown in there as well. I plan to participate in the Adventure Club's 3rd annual Staff VS. Student Softball Game on October 16, and if I don't have plans on Saturday the 17th, I plan to participate in the Imperial Farmer's Market Octoberfest.
That is all I have planned this month, but MORE stuff will pile up as the days come.
But...oh my, I need some rest already.. and I havent reached the month yet! I've been in heroine status for 2 weeks straight and been participating in some activities at TWCT (and will continue to in October). I've been in 3 different arguments with 3 different guys (will NOT mention names). One of them, you may probably know of, the other two, I dont even want to talk about them at all.
So, okay really do need some rest. Literally. See ya whenever. :P
My Top 10 Reasons Why I Watch College Football
1. FLORIDA GATOR FAN since 2006 (Yes, the 06-07 season was my first one and I was pretty amazed they won the championship and Mike Bettes had to do the Gator Chomp on A&B hahaha)
2. UCLA is my second favorite...NOT USC.
3. Going for the GATORS, does not mean I want to be like Stephanie Abrams...ok maybe but at least we got something in common...
4. I get so hyper when Tim Tebow scores a touchdown.
5. I love to pick on/trash talk/smack talk about teams that I don't like (I'll tell you at reasons # 9 and 10)
6. I cry when my team loses (this really happened in the 08-09 season, when they lost to Ole Miss 31-30 *grrr*)
7. My team DOMINATES the BCS (Meaning: BOWL CHAMPIONSHIP SERIES. Yes they are numero uno in the country. And yes I do know what that means so you are free to ask).
8. I even have a FLORIDA GATORS sweatshirt, and I wear it whenever Florida plays. It brings me good luck I guess. Looking forward to getting the Tim Tebow Jersey!!
9. Teams I respect: Penn State, Wisconsin, Ohio State (at times...:P) UCLA, Texas, California,...there are so many I guess.
10. Teams I disrespect: USC (because four people I know go for this team, including Adam, his dad Rene, my sis Adriana, and her friend Alex. WHO CARES. Florida plays better football than USC. Meaning, better action, better players, etcetera etcetera.), Oklahoma (because they are such crybabies, they can't even make a perfect touchdown! I can prove it, I saw the BCS Title Game 2009!!!), The WHOLE SEC Conference (because they want to take revenge on my Gators. And that's messed up!)
BUT....one more thing...it's just for fun ok!! No offense taken. (unless you are a gator hater and you want to pick on/trash talk/smack talk about my team then ok, YOU'RE ON!!!)
Just have fun :
Seether "Rise Above This"
Take the light, and darken everything around me
call the clouds and listen closely, I'm lost without you
Call your name every day when i feel so helpless
I'm fallin' down but I'll rise above this, rise above this
Hate the mind, regrets are better left unspoken
For all we know, this void will grow and
Everything's in vain, distressing you though it leaves me open
Feels so right, but I'll end this all before it gets me
Call your name every day, when i feel so helpless
I'm fallin' down, but I'll rise above this, rise above this
Call your name every day, when i seem so helpless
I'm fallin' down, but I'll rise above this, rise above this doubt
I'll mend myself before it gets me
(I'll mend myself before it gets me)
I'll mend myself before it gets me
(I'll mend myself before it gets me)
Call your name every day, when i feel so helpless
I'm fallin' down, but I'll rise above this, rise above this
Call your name every day, when i seem so helpless
I'm fallin' down, but I'll rise above this, rise above this
Forty eight ways to say that I'm feelin' helpless
Fallin' down, fallin down', but I'll rise above this, rise above this
Another Random Blog By Meh...
So, it's been a month or so that I have posted one of these, so I decided to write about what has been going on this summer and how my first week of 2nd year went..
Some things are going well, some are...well you get the point...
In terms of college, my 2nd year started off great! I am loving all my classes, and it's wayyy better than last year. Also, I am hoping to make it official that my graduation year will be 2011, which is also the year I will be transferring. Can't wait!! I will put my best effort to make it. My other plans are to also get involved in a club! I plan to join the Adventure club. Looks like a great club. As of now I am doing some serious college searching so I can follow their transfer plan.
In terms of friends: I feel like I have gained a new best friend. His name is Patrick. Yeah, that one Patrick from NY, the TWCT meteorologist. He IMed me for help and support last week and this week, and I felt like I had to be by his side for everything, including those "Youtube stream incidents". I was always his backup. I do try my best tho to keep up with everything.
Anyways, I do hope everyone's semester turns out to be the best! Good luck to all!
Natalie Imbruglia "Torn"
I thought I saw a man brought to life
He was warm
He came around and he was dignified
He showed me what it was to cry
Well you couldn't be that man I adored
You don't seem to know
Or seem to care what your heart is for
Well I don't know him anymore
There's nothing where he used to lie
My conversation has run dry
That's what's going on
Nothing's fine I'm torn
I'm all out of faith
This is how I feel
I'm cold and I am shamed
Lying naked on the floor
Illusion never changed
Into something real
I'm wide awake
And I can see
The perfect sky is torn
You're a little late
I'm already torn
So I guess the fortune teller's right
I should have seen just what was there
And not some holy light
But you crawled beneath my veins
And now I don't care
I have no luck
I don't miss it all that much
There's just so many things
That I can't touch I'm torn
I'm all out of faith
This is how I feel
I'm cold and I am shamed
Lying naked on the floor
Illusion never changed
Into something real
I'm wide awake
And I can see
The perfect sky is torn
You're a little late
I'm already torn
There's nothing where he used to lie
My inspiration has run dry
That's what's going on
Nothing's right I'm torn
I'm all out of faith
This is how I feel
I'm cold and I am shamed
Lying naked on the floor
Illusion never changed
Into something real
I'm wide awake
And I can see
The perfect sky is torn
I'm all out of faith
This is how I feel
I'm cold and I'm ashamed
Bound and broken on the floor
You're a little late
I'm already torn
Saturday, August 1, 2009
Bring Smooth Jazz Back To TWC!!
Hello friends, Today, it has brought to my attention to share an important petition. |
Friday, July 31, 2009
Sooo whatcha been up to, Anistorm?
Sooo, first of all, I am now in a softball league. I tried out, I waited for my call-back and made it in the 18-and-under league. The teammates, and the coach are awesome. I even earned a nickname, I am known as the "Newbie" of the newbie team. The teammates and I had some bad scrimmages and some practices were pretty tough. The first two games were horrific. We lost two pitchers that week and I was one of the replacement pitchers. I play outfield BTW, I am mostly center field. Today, we had a double header, and we beat both the Brawley Unknowns, and the Imperial Wildcats. My softball skills are getting there, but even though...this is the only year I am playing the league.
Also, well besides that, I have been dealing with some heroine stuff all month long, supporting and getting involved in the TWC Today Forums, and at a chatroom I'd like to call it the "Channel". :P I am one of the moderators, and I do strive to keep it safe from bastards, bitches, and other "
My sophomore year in IVC begins in less than 30 days and I am having problems registering with classes (and I have to wait for some classes to open so I can get the spot). Also, I am worried about financial aid. Tuition fees have raised.
So, that's all I be blogging now...expect me to blog by the end of August. :P j/k
Sunday, June 28, 2009
Death Week---6/22/09 to 6/28/09
Ed McMahon (died June 23, 2009)-He was that one famous person who is the "sidekick" of Legendary Talk Show Host Johnny Carson (RIP). He always says his drawn-out line "Heeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeres JOHNNY!" whenever The Tonight Show start in the past decades. He also participated in various charities, and hosted the Jerry Lewis Telethon (which airs every Labor Day). Ed was 86 years old.
Farrah Fawcett (died June 25, 2009)-She was the "international sex symbol" in the 70's and 80's. She was the "original" Charlie's Angel. She was very beautiful. Everyone admired her hair, the "Farrah-do". She was diagnosed with anal cancer and she became very brave. She did a documentary about her battle against her cancer. Unforunately, she lost her battle. Farrah was 62 years old.
Michael Jackson (died June 25, 2009, hours after Fawcett)- He was the King Of Pop. Known for selling billions and billions of albums. And was also known for being a little controversial. Michael Jackson was world-famous. His death has shocked the universe. Michael Jackson died of cardiac arrest suddenly, two weeks before starting his tour in England. He left a hole in every fan's soul. Michael was 50 years old.
Billy Mays (died Today, June 28, 2009) He was famously known as "that one OxiClean guy on TV". He was the "Informercial King". Billy Mays did various infomercials such as FixIt, Kaboom, OrangeGlo, Zorbeez, MightyMendit, and others more. Billy Mays died of an unknown cause (as of yet), he was found unresponsive by his wife earlier that morning. No one will see the future of informercials again. Billy was 50 years old.
As we all take a moment of silence, these celebrities have the right to be honored, for all the work they have done to influence our lives and the past forever.
Friday, June 19, 2009
Why I Hate DirecTV
1. On TWC they have your own ZIP Code LF that appears on every LOT8's. But on certain commercial-free events and stuff...you can't seem to exit out of the stupid LF, even if you press "exit" on your remote". You have to wait two minutes for that LF to do it's "bizness".
2. Channels 100-199 are mostly DirecTV channels. They don't have that much Pay-per-view channels than before.
3. I tried the Game Corner. It SUCKS. At first I thought it was free..I ain't paying $5.99 a month for a game.
4. The Music Choices (aka Sirius XM Radio) are confusing...Every single Genre has it's own channel...and most of them are music that I really really really hate.
5. I live near Arizona, and Arizona gets no local channels. I have to hook up a good SD Antenna to watch the local channels here (some local channels are from Los Angeles and San Diego). WTF, no local channels on satellite=no satellite for meh. (as of now I have to buy a converter box to be able to watch my local channels again <_<)
6. The DirecTV guide can't travel past three days...after 5:00 PM the third day it starts saying "TO BE ANNOUNCED".
7. The remote control has pointless buttons. Even if you have an SD reciever, there is no stupid reason to use the PLAY, STOP, REWIND, FAST FORWARD, RECORD, SKIP 30 SECONDS, and GO BACK 30 SECONDS buttons. Why can't they provide an SD remote? Since all you use is the bottom half of the remote. >_>
So...I am definelty considering switching to another provider. It's CrapTV.
Wednesday, June 3, 2009
Linkin Park-"New Divide"
I remember black skies
The lightning all around me
I remembered each flash
As time began to blur
Like a startling sign
That fate had finally found me
And your voice was all I heard
Did I get what I deserve?
So give me reason
To prove me wrong
To wash this memory clean
Let the thoughts cross
The distance in your eyes
Give me reason
To fill this hole
Connect the space between
Let it fill up to reach the truth and lies
Across this new divide
There was nothing inside
The memories left abandoned
There was nowhere to hide
The ashes fell like snow
And the ground caved in
Between where we were standing
And your voice was all I heard
Did I get what I deserve?
So give me reason
To prove me wrong
To wash this memory clean
Let the thoughts cross
The distance in your eyes
Across this new divide
In every loss, in every lie
In every truth that you deny
And each regret, and each goodbye
Was a mistake too great to hide
And your voice was all I heard
Did I get what I deserve?
So give me reason
To prove me wrong
To wash this memory clean
Let the thoughts cross
The distance in your eyes
Give me reason
To fill this hole
Connect the space between
Let it fill up to reach the truth and lies
Across this new divide
Across this new divide
Across this new divide…
That I get what I deserve
So give me reason to prove me wrong
To wash this memory clean
Let the floods cross the distance in your eyes
Give me reason to fill this hole
Connect the space between
Let it be enough to reach the truth that lies
Across this new divide
Your (Rock) Music On The 8s.
The music on TWC. Back in the old days it has never changed. Many people enjoyed the smooth jazz music during two minutes before a show segment came on. Back in my old days, when I was a teenager, I never really enjoyed the music...but until March 2003, I heard an awesome song. It was smooth, peaceful, that took me years to look for who it was played by. “Rushing” by Moby was the song.
I have to admit I really do enjoy the smooth sounds of the LF music. I met a friend who is an expert of that kind of music.
BUT…this year, the whole music changed. When NBC purchased TWC, they decided to play music that wasn’t made to be played in the LOT8s. This happened in Mid-April when the decided to extend the March 2009 playlist…just to put “freak music” (in the words of Springy). Some songs in the April-May 2009 playlist were Rock music. For as I’ve heard, there were many disappointing LF music fans.
This month has gotten even worse. They decided to “get rid of the jazz music and add more rock music”. What kind of rock music? That’s how I wondered. If they put like old old old old rock music it’s gonna aggravate me. They might not play “For Real” by Jim Lum or “Rushing” by Moby. Those 2 songs are my favorite so far (oh, and not to mention anything Ryan Farish). I still wonder the rock music part. One time (I hope you guys remember this) they played several LOT8s with vocal music. Nickelback “Far Away”, and Death Cab For Cutie “Soul Meets Body”. I really enjoyed it but it felt weird of them playing vocal music on the LOT8s. (This was in 2007).
Heres my IMO. I have decided to stay neutral on this. I can’t decide and may never be able to decide which side to take. I can’t also have two friends having a different opinion. I mean, I do enjoy rock music, alternative, or indie, but this music that I am hearing is not the rock music I expect to hear on the LOT8s. You are welcome to comment about this but your comments cannot turn me around from being neutral.
Today...they stopped playing the music and turned into "Trammel Starks-a-thon" What is the sign of that?
Tuesday, June 2, 2009
50 Sxene Facts by Giovanni
If you are too sensitive, leave this now.
Sunday, May 31, 2009
Okay look people I don't hate scene kids but hate how so many of them have quite a shitty personality. I am not an emo bashing on scene kids, because i'm not emo but a person who likes to expose the truth. Note: emo and scene are different If you have more than 10 of these qualities then your pretty fucking scene, and not in a good way. I'll admit i have a couple of these qualities, just some not even 3. BTW I got this information from my experience with scene people like some of my friends, myspace friends, people i don't like, my ex girlfriends who were scene, and i even got info from some local metalheads. Yes I am so obnoxious 1. You get mad and bitch at people when they call you scene even though you go on the internet to look up "how to be scene" 2. You have a bad personality and still manage to have alot of friends of equal or lesser personalities. 3. You think bands like Dr. Acula, Bring me the horizon, Suicide silence, Hello kitty Suicide club, Job for a cowboy are Grindcore (please don't believe what they say on myspace scene kids) 4. You post stupid pointless videos on youtube, Ex "my first Pokemon Card" 5. You spell brutal "br00tal or 8r00t4l" 6. You smoke and make sure everybody knows it (cuz it's way coller than lung cancer) 7. You brag about how many myspace friends you have 8. You are an Oli Sykes slave 9. Bring me the horizon is your favorite band for no reason only because the members look so scene and so hot and so "br00tal" and you try to convince yourself and other people that it's their music. 10. You claim to listen to Grindcore but for sum reason you've never heard of Naplam Death. 11. You don't listen to any metal unless it ends in CORE 12. You make fun of nerds even though you watch anime and play pokemon 13. You hang with the "cool kids" and still pretend like your an outcast 14. Your concieded and a bitch at the same time 15. You think Brokencyde makes good music 16. All your band tees are brightly colored, illegible logos and creepy looking animal in the center 17. Your myspace name is something like Ana Massacre, Alan Br00tality, Drop Dead Mike, Bring Jessica the Horizon, or Kelly Sykes 18. You over use <3 on the internet 19. Your music taste is predictable, it's either techno, electronica, RNB, hip hop, pop, screamo and for some reason metalcore and deathcore 20. You hate your parents for no reason 21. You assume verybody finds you attractive 22. You make fun of The Jonas Brothers, but are ignorant enough to NOT realize that bands like BMTH and Dr. Acula have the same retarded qualities. 23. You wear and overrate Hello Kitty, not because you like Hello Kitty but because you notice other scenes have it 24. You have hundreds of photos featuring yourself 25. You use the word "nigger" even though you are white, hispanic, asian or middle eastern 26. You change your hair color way too often 27. You don't go out in public without eyeliner 28. You believe music should be more about fashion and less about quality, creativity or originality, FUCK BMTH!!! 29. You say your are BI to get attention when really you aren't (kissing the opposite sex doesn't prove shit FAKER!!!) 30. You look really gay but still have the nerve to put "Straight Pride" on your Myspace 31. You think it's cool that shitty scene bands make a cover of the latest hip-hop/RNB song, in some cases it's a screamo, metalcore and deathcore cover...ohh God!!! 32. You over use the word "crunk" which was inspired from that shitty compilation "punk goes crunk"...more like scene goes crunk, cause there is nothing punk about those complilations 33. You can't name a band that is actually Hardcore 34. You label yourself as a bitch, cunt, or slut 35. You convince yourself every person you date is your "true love" 36. You spell like an 8-year old on purpose 37. Hot Topic is your one stop for music and clothing 38. You can care less for bands like Killswitch Engage, Chimaira, Burning Skies, Hatebreed, All shall perish, Impending Doom, Winds of Plague becuase they don't look scene but can care for bands like BMTH, the devil Wears Prada, Dr Acula, and Attack Attack! because the people look so fucking scene 39. You get a haircut and for some reason get hair extentions afterwards 40. You take a pic with tape on your mouth, put captions next to it and post it on myspace 41. When some insults scene, the only thing you can say is how bad they look and how good you look 42. You are fake 43. You are a brat 44. You think everybody loves you 45. You think you don't have enemies 46. You're just a trendwhore 47. Somehow you arn't dead when you're a cocky bitch 48. You denie the truth about scenes 49. You can't accept when your wrong 50. Reading this blog actually offended you instead of finding it funny that its 100% true and you will delete me for it (haha some have because I insulted their precious BMTH) |
Thursday, May 21, 2009
The Number Of "Rants" I Made
So, here I go. Here are some of my rants as of April 22, 2009
1. # of rants about the times I missed the bus: 8. WTF...they don't even wait for the people who arrive on time. Buses arrive so freakin early now. Now I have to wake up so freaking early just to wait for the bus earlier than usual!
2. # of rants about the times I had to tell people to SCREW OFF: 1. Recently, I told an grouchy old lady to get out of my sight because she wanted the seat I was sitting in at the front of the bus. i told her "NO." She was evil....
3. # of rants in regards of TWC: A Billion. OMG AL ROKER IS COMING TO TWC!!! No. That is not my problem, and no I am not an Al Roker Fan. Okay, I knew that he would come here, I knew he would ruin TWC by storm. I made a billion rants about this and I made some today..that will be explained in a later blog very soon.
4. # of rants about school: pretty much 10. Most recently they made a new restriction on registration. Post Sophomores, graduate students, and Special ED students have the priority to register. Incoming freshman and sophomores have low-priority registration (meaning we get the last seats in some classes). That sucks. Why didn't they do UNIVERSAL PRIORITY REGISTRATION on every student? On June 2nd I expect those pop up errors to fade away. >_<
5. # of rants about being an 18 year old biotch: A Trillion. Long story. Its mainly about getting a job. :P
6. # of rants in regards of Adam: Hmm, lets see. 1..2..3..None. I <3 you sweetie!
7. # of rants about my friends: None either....:P
8. # of rants about that one dude who loves to pick on my friends: 65. <---This is NOT a random number as I counted that since I got to know him in February. If you don't know who I am talking about, see my "Dear SOB" noteblog.
9. # of rants about Technology: 50. rant #50 happened this morning at exactly 6:01 AM. My internet went out. >_<
10. # of rants about life in general: to infinity and beyond.
Total Rants I made: 1,200,000,000,115
Number will go up by the end of 2009. :P
Monday, May 18, 2009
Jordin Sparks--Battlefield
Don’t try to explain your mind
I know what’s happening here
One minute, it’s love
And, suddenly, it’s like a battlefield
One word turns into a
Why is it the smallest things that tear us down
My world’s nothing when you’re gone
I’m out here without a shield - can’t go back, now
Both hands tied behind my back for nothing, oh, no
These times when we climb so fast to fall, again
Why we gotta fall for it, now…
Chorus:I never meant to start a war
You know, I never wanna hurt you
Don’t even know what we’re fighting for
Why does love always feel like a battlefield, a battlefield, a battlefield
Why does love always feel like a battlefield, a battlefield, a battlefield
Why does love always feel like
Can’t swallow our pride
Neither of us wanna raise that flag, mmm
If we can’t surrender
Then, we’re both gonna what we have, oh, no
Both hands tied behind my back for nothing (nothing), oh, no
These times when we climb so fast to fall, again
I don’t wanna fall for it, now…
Chorus:I never meant to start a war
You know, I never wanna hurt you
Don’t even know what we’re fighting for
Why does love always feel like a battlefield, a battlefield, a battlefield
Why does love always feel like a battlefield, a battlefield, a battlefield
Better go and get your armor (get your armor), get your armor (get your armor)
I guess you better go and get your armor (get your armor), get your armor (get your armor)
I guess you better go and get your
We could pretend that we are friends, tonight (oh)
And, in the morning, we wake up, and we’d be alright
‘Cause, baby, we don’t have to fight
And I don’t want this love to feel like a battlefield, a battlefield, a battlefield
Why does love always feel like a battlefield, a battlefield, a battlefield
I guess you better go and get your armor…
Chorus:I never meant to start a war
You know, I never wanna hurt you
Don’t even know what we’re fighting for
Why does love always feel like a battlefield, a battlefield, a battlefield
Why does love always feel like a battlefield, a battlefield, a battlefield
Saturday, May 9, 2009
DHT "Listen To Your Heart"
"Listen To Your Heart"
I know there's something in the wake of your smile.
I get a notion from the look in your eyes, yea.
You've built a love but that love falls apart.
Your little piece of heaven turns too dark.
Listen to your heart
when he's calling for you.
Listen to your heart
there's nothing else you can do.
I don't know where you're going
and I don't know why,
but listen to your heart
before you tell him goodbye.
Sometimes you wonder if this fight is worthwhile.
The precious moments are all lost in the tide, yea.
They're swept away and nothing is what is seems,
the feeling of belonging to your dreams.
Listen to your heart
when he's calling for you.
Listen to your heart
there's nothing else you can do.
I don't know where you're going
and I don't know why,
but listen to your heart
before you tell him goodbye.
And there are voices
that want to be heard.
So much to mention
but you can't find the words.
The scent of magic,
the beauty that's been
when love was wilder than the wind.
Listen to your heart
when he's calling for you.
Listen to your heart
there's nothing else you can do.
I don't know where you're going
and I don't know why,
but listen to your heart
before you tell him goodbye.
Listen to your heart, mm-mmmmmm
I don't know where you're going
and I don't know why,
but listen to your heart
before you tell him goodbye
Tuesday, May 5, 2009
Dear SOB.
But why? Why at me? Do you have a problem with me? I help friends, I am a heroine. For me you are a villian wanting to take over the world. But I am glad I defeated you this Cinco De Mayo.
And still, you talk smack...outside of our world.
Let me tell you this. SOB:
Mess with me: You're dead.
Call Jesse a F***er: You're screwed, then dead.
Call Martin a racist: Hah, you're a racist yourself!
Scold Josh like that on youtube: Meet your worst nightmare.
Make more offensive YT vids: I will report them...no matter how times, in fact I even reported your channel as violent.
Mess with ANYone else or ANY of my friends: you'll never know what I'll do.
And...you think you would moderate a forum when 99.99% of the members despise you (including me)? Being a moderator is too much work. Nobody would appreciate you being a moderator. And if you want to know what caused the permanent ban of your "alter ego?" It was me, I was the one who reported him. You can hate me for that, but everyone thanked me. You are more than welcome to hate me. Martin, Gary, Stephen and Kyle Smith are great administrators. Martin however...I trust him 100% and I know he will be a great moderator.
So, if I see you or if I get a text/im/tweet/message/email from one of my friends about you...you'll never know what I will do to you. because all this needs to stop now.
Get away from me.
Ana/Anistorm/IheartStephanieAbrams
Saturday, May 2, 2009
Dear Ex-Boyfriend.
When your so called "behavior" changed, my love towards you changed. I don't know who you are anymore. You cared about your game more than me, and you behaved differently towards my friends. I couldn't tolerate this behavior anymore, and had to leave you. Your acts on Martin's stream were unapologetic. Ashley wouldn't accept your apologies because you posed as ashleytiger23 (herself). This action will never happen again. I hope it won't happen again. I won't let it happen again.
When you wrote to me that other day, I was debating either have my mom lower my curfew at 10:00 PM or to face you once again. Reading those words...I felt like I was about to go in a trap. I do not believe you. Where the hell are your apoligies? I got evidence that you never cared about the relationship. Your FB statuses, your Myspace statuses, they all seemed true. So, what the hell, once I thought you really cared, now you really don't. So, at the final minute I decided to have my mom lower my curfew to 10.
Also, You call my friends Pathetic? Well, I am so sorry you feel that way but you know what, if you disrespect my friends (Jesse, Springy, Billy, Jonny, Max, Patrick, Martin, Evan, Zachy, etc), then you disrespect me. My friends are the best and they have been backing me up on all this. I thank them. I also helped several of your friends including Ashley, she is on my side now. I adore my friends with all my heart, and I can't believe you don't respect them like you respect me.
I waited and waited for you to apoligize, but you seemed to not care. If you had, I would have given you a 2nd chance. Well guess what, You missed your chance. That's why I am at the path that I chose to take now. I changed my future plans. I don't want to go back to Colton. I don't want to attend CSU San Bernardino. I would rather stay here in Duck Centro and enjoy the things I have now. I have planned to go out of state and move away from what you have done. I don't expect you to find me, you won't.
I really don't know what to do with you...tryyyyying to get me to talk to you. Well, this blog proves of everything on how I feel. I don't have to waste my time sending you a message. If I do send you the message, you will disregard it and go F**K with your life. Don't expect me to be with another man, or with a kid of my own in the future when we meet again. Like I always say, Life's a Hurricane. It's Unpredictable.
bye. and have a not so super day! >_>
---Ana/Anistorm/IheartStephanieAbrams
Monday, April 27, 2009
Lifehouse-Broken
Maybe it can stop tomorrow from stealing all my time
I am here still waiting though i still have my doubts
I am damaged at best, like you've already figured out
I'm falling apart, I'm barely breathing
With a broken heart that's still beating
In the pain, there is healing
In your name I find meaning
So I'm holdin' on, I'm holdin' on, I'm holdin' on
I'm barely holdin' on to you
The broken locks were a warning you got inside my head
I tried my best to be guarded, I'm an open book instead
I still see your reflection inside of my eyes
That are looking for a purpose, they're still looking for life
I'm falling apart, I'm barely breathing
with a broken heart that's still beating
In the pain (in the pain), is there healing
In your name (in your name) I find meaning
So I'm holdin' on (I'm still holdin'), I'm holdin' on (I'm still holdin'), I'm holdin' on (I'm still holdin')
I'm barely holdin' on to you
I'm hangin' on another day
Just to see what you throw my way
And I'm hanging on to the words you say
You said that I will be OK
The broken lights on the freeway left me here alone
I may have lost my way now, haven't forgotten my way home
I'm falling apart, I'm barely breathing
with a broken heart that's still beating
In the pain(In the pain) there is healing
In your name I find meaning
So I'm holdin' on (I'm still holdin'), I'm holdin' on (I'm still holdin'), I'm holdin' on (I'm still holdin'),
I'm barely holdin' on to you
I'm holdin' on (I'm still holdin'), I'm holdin' on (I'm still holdin'), I'm holdin' on (I'm still holdin'),
I'm barely holdin' on to you
Making Good Progress...But It's Not Over.
Well, I am protected on Martin's stream thanks to Jesse, Springy and Billy (I less than three them :D). His IP address is banned. and Autumn seems to be getting some messages from him, but I urged her to not reply. Ashley never knew that he did the whole "posing as herself" thing that happened last week. She is now on my side.
As of now, I am on vent with Ashley, and nothing has happened. I am also with the guys chillin.
I know I will get through this, but I still need to be careful and watch my back because I know something will happen. I know I will protect myself from any kind of danger.
Saturday, April 25, 2009
Realization?
I was at college, and I was hanging out with the guys (Jesse, Springy, and Billy) we were having fun, and just chillin outside. This took place shortly after breaking up with Adam. All of then sudden, I get a call from his dad. He asks me how I was been and how was everything. I told him "good, I'm just chillin." Then I had that urge to ask how was Adam. He said he was okay, but was depressed. I wasn't sad about that. After we hung up, Springy did the storm train dance. :P Adam's dad showed up in front of us. He came up to me and gave me a photo album. Inside that photo album had pictures of me and Adam...some of our good times. I was viewing that album, and when I was about to finish it, Jesse took the album from me, Springy lights fire, and burns the album into ashes. I was a little confused to why they burned the album. Billy took me away from Adam's dad and us, Springy and Jesse ran away.
Intepretations tell me that when I was using my cellphone, it tells me that I am being receptive to what's new in life after being in a relationship. When Adam's dad brought the album, it tells me that I just want to look back in the past for a bit. But as when Jesse took the album and Springy burned it, the burning album tells me that the memories are finally left behind, and it was time to move on to the future.
After that dream ended...somehow I woke up depressed. But I didn't care. I'm making very good progress of getting over him.
Friday, April 24, 2009
Dido--White Flag
I know you think that I shouldn't still love you,
Or tell you that.
But if I didn't say it, well I'd still have felt it
where's the sense in that?
I promise I'm not trying to make your life harder
Or return to where we were
I will go down with this ship
And I won't put my hands up and surrender
There will be no white flag above my door
I'm in love and always will be
I know I left too much mess and
destruction to come back again
And I caused nothing but trouble
I understand if you can't talk to me again
And if you live by the rules of "it's over"
then I'm sure that that makes sense
I will go down with this ship
And I won't put my hands up and surrender
There will be no white flag above my door
I'm in love and always will be
And when we meet
Which I'm sure we will
All that was there
Will be there still
I'll let it pass
And hold my tongue
And you will think
That I've moved on....
I will go down with this ship
And I won't put my hands up and surrender
There will be no white flag above my door
I'm in love and always will be
I will go down with this ship
And I won't put my hands up and surrender
There will be no white flag above my door
I'm in love and always will be
I will go down with this ship
And I won't put my hands up and surrender
There will be no white flag above my door
I'm in love and always will be
Wednesday, April 22, 2009
An Earth Day Special: Anistorm's Ways To Be Green
-Conserve Water....One drop of water can cost you on your water bill.
- Change from regular soft white light bulbs to Fluorescent, energy-saving light bulbs that lasts up to 7 or 9 years. (WARNING: handle these bulbs with care. If you break them, they will release a certain gas and will make you faint. Trust me, it has happened to me.)
-Make sure you eat greens, too.
-If you have a yard and your yard has more brown than green, try gardening! Plant a tree in your yard! Plant some flowers! Just plant something.
-Make your own ice cubes. It's a waste of time, and money to buy a bag of ice.
-When you take notes in school, try not to waste so much lined paper. Try fitting every single notes on one sheet of paper (front and back,) all 33 lines (on college ruled paper, 25 for wide ruled). You save a billion trees.
-When you buy a bottled water, make sure you reuse it!!!!
-Always unplug cell phone chargers. They can waste so much electricity.
Anyways...I hope some of these help make the world a better place! Gotta love the green!
Sunday, April 19, 2009
A Random Joke @ 8:30 PM.
Me (Anistorm) Jesse Maloney (jtmal0723) and Springy (SpringRubber)
[20:32] <+Anistorm> I went to Carl's Jr. Mmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm! yummy
[20:32] <%SpringRubber> on Parker Road?
[20:32] <%jtmal0723> *rimshot*
[20:32] <+Anistorm> by my house, silly
[20:32] <%SpringRubber> it's for real, though
[20:32] * +Anistorm slaps's Springy's forehead
[20:32] <%jtmal0723> you said Carl's Jr
[20:32] <%SpringRubber> Carl told that joke once
[20:32] <%jtmal0723> Carl Parker, get it?
LOL. ^ Enjoy.
Saturday, April 18, 2009
Stephanie Abrams Talks About Me On A&B-WC!!!!
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=eTvW16fFLLc&feature=channel_page
^clicky! :P
Wednesday, April 15, 2009
Nickelback---If Today Was Your Last Day
My best friend gave me the best advice
He said each day's a gift and not a given right
Leave no stone unturned, leave your fears behind
And try to take the path less traveled by
That first step you take is the longest stride
If today was your last day
And tomorrow was too late
Could you say goodbye to yesterday?
Would you live each moment like your last?
Leave old pictures in the past
Donate every dime you have?
If today was your last day
Against the grain should be a way of life
What's worth the prize is always worth the fight
Every second counts 'cause there's no second try
So live like you'll never live it twice
Don't take the free ride in your own life
If today was your last day
And tomorrow was too late
Could you say goodbye to yesterday?
Would you live each moment like your last?
Leave old pictures in the past
Donate every dime you have?
Would you call old friends you never see?
Reminisce old memories
Would you forgive your enemies?
Would you find that one you're dreamin' of?
Swear up and down to God above
That you finally fall in love
If today was your last day
If today was your last day
Would you make your mark by mending a broken heart?
You know it's never too late to shoot for the stars
Regardless of who you are
So do whatever it takes
'Cause you can't rewind a moment in this life
Let nothin' stand in your way
Cause the hands of time are never on your side
If today was your last day
And tomorrow was too late
Could you say goodbye to yesterday?
Would you live each moment like your last?
Leave old pictures in the past
Donate every dime you have?
Would you call old friends you never see?
Reminisce old memories
Would you forgive your enemies?
Would you find that one you're dreamin' of?
Swear up and down to God above
That you finally fall in love
If today was your last day
Tuesday, April 14, 2009
Anistorm 2 The Rescue....?
Wednesday, April 8, 2009
Please Don't Leave Me---Pink
I don't know if I can yell any louder,
How many times have I kicked you out of here?
Or said something insulting?
Da da da da da
I can be so mean when I wanna be,
I am capable of really anything,
I could cut you into pieces,
But my heart is, broken.
Da da da da da
Please don't leave me [x2]
I always say how I don't need you
But it's always gonna come right back to this
Please don't leave me
How did I become so obnoxious,
What is it with you that makes me act like this,
I've never been this nasty,
Can't you tell that this is just a contest?
The one that wins will be the one that hits the hardest,
But baby I don't mean it,
I mean it, I promise
Da da da da da
Please don't leave me [x2]
I always say how I don't need you
But it's always gonna come right back to this
Please don't leave me
I forgot to say out loud,
How beautiful you really are to me,
I can't be without,
You're my perfect little punching bag,
And I need you,
I'm sorry.
Da da da da
da da da da
Da da da da da
Please, please don't leave me
Baby please don't leave me (no, don't leave me)
Please don't leave me
I always say how I don't need you
But it's always gonna come right back to this
Please don't leave me (no, don't leave me)
I always say how I don't need you,
But it's always gonna come right back to this,
Please don't leave me,
Please, please don't leave me.
Tuesday, April 7, 2009
A Random Blog....Nothing Dangerous.
Anyways, I haven't written a random blog for like ever. And guess what I'm actually doing it. Lets see what has been happening so far...
So, yesterday was supposed to be my interview for FYE, but it all turned out that my mom and dad were calling me like crazy telling me not to go. If I had not had a celly and a mysterious person following me, I would have gone there in secret...shhhhh. :P
Also yesterday, I have shown my heroine side again when I got a cry of help from my best friend Autumn. In the past couple of days she has been depressed, I even had to intepret her dreams of her friend's funeral. Now she is happy and is glad that I have rescued her from the depression.
My math midterm was today. And it all turned out 99.99% good! 25 questions of decimals and ratios, it was a piece of chocolate cake! Decimalphobia is gone for good....until the final exam. (insert psycho scream).
Also, last night...I guess my behavior changed. All of the sudden things haven't been what they used to be. I was feeling mixed all day but now my mood is being pissed only. I really really don't want to talk about it here. For whatever happened, I would just stay pissed for days than accepting that I regretted. If I was mad at Adam, we would just kiss and make up right away. :P :D. If it was a best friend, depending on the situation, it was either kiss and make up or I will never be your friend again. But I gotta note on my regrets, though. You'll never know when I will be okay again. *sigh*...Right now I have too many things on my mind right now...and I am wondering if I would be able to regret. (it does sound like I do have a little problem with regretting things.) I'm supposed to be lying in bed right now, even though it's not my bed time yet. But I want to get this overwith.
Oh and BTW, someone said that I might be prego as my life changing news. GET REAL. Whatever. That is not true.
The New Me Is Coming Soon...
So, people, if you are texting me like crazy and spending my prepaid cell minutes wanting to know what will happen to me, please stop, you're abusing my "Text Me In Case Of Emergency" phrase.
Anyways, it turns out that around this month, or maybe next week, I won't be wearing my green-and-black glasses anymore. I have made my decision that I will be doing LASIK eye surgery. You might think (if you have Doctorphobia, like me), that it will mess up my life, but it won't.
But once I learn about it, it does seem a little painful, I even saw a video on youtube on it. And idk if what I am saying is a rumor, that LASIK eye surgery can ruin your eyesight forever.
Well, idk about you guys, but I am willing to take the risk. I am told that I am a natural risk taker. It was now time to leave the glasses behind and not worry about them amymore. I've been wearing glasses since Freshman year and well, I'm in college and I am tired of people saying that I look 15 or 16. I am 18. My friends will be so proud of me that I made the right decision.
Sunday, April 5, 2009
Angel Of Mine---Monica
When I first saw you I already knew
There was something inside of you
Something I thought that I would never find
Angel of mine
I look at you, lookin' at me
Now I know why they say the best things are free
I'm gonna love you til the end of time
Angel of Mine
What you mean to me you'll never know
Deep inside I need to show
You came into my life sent from above (Sent from above)
When I got a dream such a perfect love
And I won't tell you til the end of time
Angel of Mine (Angel of mine)
Nothing means more to me than what we share
No one in this whole world can ever compare
Last night the way you moved is still on my mind
Angel of Mine
What you mean to me you'll never know
Deep inside I need to show
You came into my life sent from above (Sent from above)
When I got a dream such a perfect love
And I won't tell you til the end of time
Angel of Mine (Angel of mine)
How you changed my world you'll never know
I'm different now, you helped me grow
You came into my life sent from above
When I lost all hope you showed me love
I'm checkin' for ya boy you're right on time
Angel of Mine
I never knew I could feel each moment
As if it were new,
Every breath that I take, the love that I make
I wanna share it with you (you, you, you,you)
You came into my life sent from above (Sent from above)
When I got a dream such a perfect love
And I won't tell you til the end of time
Angel of Mine (Angel of mine)
I look at you lookin' at me
Now I know why they say the best things are free
Gonna Love you til the end of time
Angel of Mine
Wednesday, March 25, 2009
BEWARE Of The Caffeine Dude!!!
Tall, Bearded, mid-40's, hyper-active man who attempts to disturb the peace of people on the City Transit.
This dude drinks too much caffeine. This means coffee.
He is more likely to beat up the bus driver.
He is more likely to get close to me...and I am scared.
All I say is that if you see this dude, STAY AWAY. let the authorities take care of that for you. :P
Note: This is not a real warning, this is a warning created by Ana (Anistorm/IheartStephanieAbrams). No coffee was drunk during the making of this blog.
The Reason Why Pluto Is Not A Planet Anymore
In the words of Dr. Russel J. Lavery, IVC Astronomer.
Pluto is not a Planet anymore because scientists and astronomers 15 years ago have discovered Ice Pellets that look similar to Pluto. Those ice pellets do orbit with Pluto, but if those pellets join Pluto, then we won't tell if the planet is orbiting or not. It does seem that they are orbiting Neptune. Some Pellets are the size of Pluto, however, it is not considered a planet at all.
Why I Despise Riding The Bus
1.The bus drivers are so evil, they act like the school bus drivers.
2.Old people have priority (I understand that), but do they have to push me to the back without asking me politely?
3.The phrase “Ladies First” never exists.
4.99.99% of the bus riders do not use the pull-down cord to request to stop at a certain bus stop.
5.The bus is NOT wheelchair accessible. (Maximum limit is 2 wheelchairs, the third one is always left out and has to wait for the next available bus and seating.)
6.Some drivers don’t know when the next bus will come.
7.If you miss the bus, you have to wait approx. an hour and a half for the next one.
8.NEVER sit in the back. It’s not safe, it’s too dangerous, too much grafitti, etc!!!!
9.For people that are coming from Mexicali, the bus is considered a taxi for them, referring back to reason numero 4.
10.Children have also the priority but stay away from the ones that are sick.
Thursday, March 19, 2009
"What's The Best (Or Worst) Vacation You Have Ever Had?" My Outline
My Best Vacation
Valentine’s Day At Disneyland (February 13-15, 2009)
· Arrived at Colton on a rainy day
· Went to the mall
· Called Adam to make sure everything is okay
· Past week; nervous about the forecast
· Could not sleep Friday night due to excitement
· Woke up at 5
· Left the house with family at 6
· Arrived to pick up Adam at 6:30
· Traveled to Disneyland
· Mom gave us permission to go off on our own
· First rides: “Star Tours” “Matterhorn Bobsled” “It’s a Small World”
· The weather being so perfect!
· Entering Fantasyland, Adam overcomes fear of “Peter Pan’s Flight”
· “Pirates Of The Carribean”, Lunchtime
· “Indiana Jones”, “Space Mountain”
· Fireworks
· The long ride home
My Worst Vacation
Spring Break 2006
· Recently moved to Mexicali a month ago
· Anastacia (RIP January 6, 2006 to June 12 2006, my first kitten before Serafina) barely three months old
· Great Uncle Moy invites me and my family to his ranch at La Rumorosa
· NO TWC, could not find the forecast whatsoever
· Ist day of spring break, packed everything, even Anastacia
· Traveled up the huge road and mountain
· Reaching the top, it started to rain and gets dark
· Arrived at the ranch but took shelter
· Spotted a coyote nearby, protected my things, and the kitty
· Worst time to camp, but it was too dark to go back down south
· Temperatures felt like in the teens.
· Not enough blankets, could not sleep
· Next morning, Anastacia became sick
· All decided to escape the fate
· Went back down south in Mexicali,
· Weather became extremely different
· Learned so much lessons about the extreme weather
· Anastacia became better the next day