Lifehouse-Broken

The broken clock is a comfort, it helps me sleep tonight
Maybe it can stop tomorrow from stealing all my time
I am here still waiting though i still have my doubts
I am damaged at best, like you've already figured out

I'm falling apart, I'm barely breathing
With a broken heart that's still beating
In the pain, there is healing
In your name I find meaning
So I'm holdin' on, I'm holdin' on, I'm holdin' on
I'm barely holdin' on to you

The broken locks were a warning you got inside my head
I tried my best to be guarded, I'm an open book instead
I still see your reflection inside of my eyes
That are looking for a purpose, they're still looking for life

I'm falling apart, I'm barely breathing
with a broken heart that's still beating
In the pain (in the pain), is there healing
In your name (in your name) I find meaning
So I'm holdin' on (I'm still holdin'), I'm holdin' on (I'm still holdin'), I'm holdin' on (I'm still holdin')
I'm barely holdin' on to you

I'm hangin' on another day
Just to see what you throw my way
And I'm hanging on to the words you say
You said that I will be OK

The broken lights on the freeway left me here alone
I may have lost my way now, haven't forgotten my way home

I'm falling apart, I'm barely breathing
with a broken heart that's still beating
In the pain(In the pain) there is healing
In your name I find meaning
So I'm holdin' on (I'm still holdin'), I'm holdin' on (I'm still holdin'), I'm holdin' on (I'm still holdin'),
I'm barely holdin' on to you

I'm holdin' on (I'm still holdin'), I'm holdin' on (I'm still holdin'), I'm holdin' on (I'm still holdin'),
I'm barely holdin' on to you

Making Good Progress...But It's Not Over.

It has been almost a week since Adam and I broke up, I am making good progress of getting over him...but at some point, he doesn't seem to get over me...according to perspectives from some of my friends.

Well, I am protected on Martin's stream thanks to Jesse, Springy and Billy (I less than three them :D). His IP address is banned. and Autumn seems to be getting some messages from him, but I urged her to not reply. Ashley never knew that he did the whole "posing as herself" thing that happened last week. She is now on my side.

As of now, I am on vent with Ashley, and nothing has happened. I am also with the guys chillin.

I know I will get through this, but I still need to be careful and watch my back because I know something will happen. I know I will protect myself from any kind of danger.

Realization?

I had a dream last night...

I was at college, and I was hanging out with the guys (Jesse, Springy, and Billy) we were having fun, and just chillin outside. This took place shortly after breaking up with Adam. All of then sudden, I get a call from his dad. He asks me how I was been and how was everything. I told him "good, I'm just chillin." Then I had that urge to ask how was Adam. He said he was okay, but was depressed. I wasn't sad about that. After we hung up, Springy did the storm train dance. :P Adam's dad showed up in front of us. He came up to me and gave me a photo album. Inside that photo album had pictures of me and Adam...some of our good times. I was viewing that album, and when I was about to finish it, Jesse took the album from me, Springy lights fire, and burns the album into ashes. I was a little confused to why they burned the album. Billy took me away from Adam's dad and us, Springy and Jesse ran away.

Intepretations tell me that when I was using my cellphone, it tells me that I am being receptive to what's new in life after being in a relationship. When Adam's dad brought the album, it tells me that I just want to look back in the past for a bit. But as when Jesse took the album and Springy burned it, the burning album tells me that the memories are finally left behind, and it was time to move on to the future.

After that dream ended...somehow I woke up depressed. But I didn't care. I'm making very good progress of getting over him.

Dido--White Flag

For that one true love that I recently lost

I know you think that I shouldn't still love you,
Or tell you that.
But if I didn't say it, well I'd still have felt it
where's the sense in that?

I promise I'm not trying to make your life harder
Or return to where we were

I will go down with this ship
And I won't put my hands up and surrender
There will be no white flag above my door
I'm in love and always will be

I know I left too much mess and
destruction to come back again
And I caused nothing but trouble
I understand if you can't talk to me again
And if you live by the rules of "it's over"
then I'm sure that that makes sense

I will go down with this ship
And I won't put my hands up and surrender
There will be no white flag above my door
I'm in love and always will be

And when we meet
Which I'm sure we will
All that was there
Will be there still
I'll let it pass
And hold my tongue
And you will think
That I've moved on....

I will go down with this ship
And I won't put my hands up and surrender
There will be no white flag above my door
I'm in love and always will be

I will go down with this ship
And I won't put my hands up and surrender
There will be no white flag above my door
I'm in love and always will be

I will go down with this ship
And I won't put my hands up and surrender
There will be no white flag above my door
I'm in love and always will be

An Earth Day Special: Anistorm's Ways To Be Green

Happy Earth Day!! I just came up with some ways to be green...check them out:

-Conserve Water....One drop of water can cost you on your water bill.

- Change from regular soft white light bulbs to Fluorescent, energy-saving light bulbs that lasts up to 7 or 9 years. (WARNING: handle these bulbs with care. If you break them, they will release a certain gas and will make you faint. Trust me, it has happened to me.)

-Make sure you eat greens, too.

-If you have a yard and your yard has more brown than green, try gardening! Plant a tree in your yard! Plant some flowers! Just plant something.

-Make your own ice cubes. It's a waste of time, and money to buy a bag of ice.

-When you take notes in school, try not to waste so much lined paper. Try fitting every single notes on one sheet of paper (front and back,) all 33 lines (on college ruled paper, 25 for wide ruled). You save a billion trees.

-When you buy a bottled water, make sure you reuse it!!!!

-Always unplug cell phone chargers. They can waste so much electricity.

Anyways...I hope some of these help make the world a better place! Gotta love the green!

A Random Joke @ 8:30 PM.

This took place Sunday April 19, 2009 @ 8:32 PM PDT
Me (Anistorm) Jesse Maloney (jtmal0723) and Springy (SpringRubber)

[20:32] <+Anistorm> I went to Carl's Jr. Mmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm! yummy

[20:32] <%SpringRubber> on Parker Road?

[20:32] <%jtmal0723> *rimshot*

[20:32] <+Anistorm> by my house, silly

[20:32] <%SpringRubber> it's for real, though

[20:32] * +Anistorm slaps's Springy's forehead

[20:32] <%jtmal0723> you said Carl's Jr

[20:32] <%SpringRubber> Carl told that joke once

[20:32] <%jtmal0723> Carl Parker, get it?

LOL. ^ Enjoy.

Stephanie Abrams Talks About Me On A&B-WC!!!!

If you haven't noticed or seen the 6:40 segment of A&B-WC, you missed out of my two minutes of Fame!!!!!

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=eTvW16fFLLc&feature=channel_page

^clicky! :P

Nickelback---If Today Was Your Last Day

To all my friends :). I heart you all! Live each day while you can. Just remember that we are all there for each other!

My best friend gave me the best advice
He said each day's a gift and not a given right
Leave no stone unturned, leave your fears behind
And try to take the path less traveled by
That first step you take is the longest stride

If today was your last day
And tomorrow was too late
Could you say goodbye to yesterday?
Would you live each moment like your last?
Leave old pictures in the past
Donate every dime you have?
If today was your last day

Against the grain should be a way of life
What's worth the prize is always worth the fight
Every second counts 'cause there's no second try
So live like you'll never live it twice
Don't take the free ride in your own life

If today was your last day
And tomorrow was too late
Could you say goodbye to yesterday?
Would you live each moment like your last?
Leave old pictures in the past
Donate every dime you have?
Would you call old friends you never see?
Reminisce old memories
Would you forgive your enemies?
Would you find that one you're dreamin' of?
Swear up and down to God above
That you finally fall in love
If today was your last day

If today was your last day
Would you make your mark by mending a broken heart?
You know it's never too late to shoot for the stars
Regardless of who you are
So do whatever it takes
'Cause you can't rewind a moment in this life
Let nothin' stand in your way
Cause the hands of time are never on your side

If today was your last day
And tomorrow was too late
Could you say goodbye to yesterday?

Would you live each moment like your last?
Leave old pictures in the past
Donate every dime you have?
Would you call old friends you never see?
Reminisce old memories
Would you forgive your enemies?
Would you find that one you're dreamin' of?
Swear up and down to God above
That you finally fall in love
If today was your last day

Anistorm 2 The Rescue....?

April 14, 2009. This morning I had a dentist appointment at Mexicali. I arrived there at 10, and spend about two hours in the office. After coming out of the office, I spotted a little girl standing in the middle of the street. I started to feel a little knot inside of me when that little girl was standing there in the middle. Then, suddenly, I saw a black car coming by really really fast and it was heading towards the little girl. I just had to act fast. I went on the street and grabbed the little girl's arm and got her off the street. There were people witnessing what was about to be a horrible hit-and-run accident. The little girl didn't cry, and she held my hand tight. She then pointed out her mother who was seen looking at magazines at a newsstand. I was shocked to see that she did not pay attention to the girl at all. I went up to the mother and the girl stayed with her. The mother stared at me like WTF were you doing with my little girl. I wanted to slap her. But I simply walked away. To tell you the truth, I am so happy that I saved her. If it was my daughter then I would be her hero.

Please Don't Leave Me---Pink

To my friend Jesse

I don't know if I can yell any louder,
How many times have I kicked you out of here?
Or said something insulting?

Da da da da da

I can be so mean when I wanna be,
I am capable of really anything,
I could cut you into pieces,
But my heart is, broken.

Da da da da da

Please don't leave me [x2]
I always say how I don't need you
But it's always gonna come right back to this
Please don't leave me

How did I become so obnoxious,
What is it with you that makes me act like this,
I've never been this nasty,
Can't you tell that this is just a contest?
The one that wins will be the one that hits the hardest,
But baby I don't mean it,
I mean it, I promise

Da da da da da

Please don't leave me [x2]
I always say how I don't need you
But it's always gonna come right back to this
Please don't leave me

I forgot to say out loud,
How beautiful you really are to me,
I can't be without,
You're my perfect little punching bag,
And I need you,
I'm sorry.

Da da da da
da da da da

Da da da da da

Please, please don't leave me
Baby please don't leave me (no, don't leave me)
Please don't leave me
I always say how I don't need you
But it's always gonna come right back to this
Please don't leave me (no, don't leave me)

I always say how I don't need you,
But it's always gonna come right back to this,
Please don't leave me,

Please, please don't leave me.

A Random Blog....Nothing Dangerous.

Well, for some of you may have heard, or have read my previous blog. I am getting eye LASIK surgery around Spring Break or this month. If you haven't read the news, then...why are you here reading this? You just spoiled it. :P :P :P j/k

Anyways, I haven't written a random blog for like ever. And guess what I'm actually doing it. Lets see what has been happening so far...

So, yesterday was supposed to be my interview for FYE, but it all turned out that my mom and dad were calling me like crazy telling me not to go. If I had not had a celly and a mysterious person following me, I would have gone there in secret...shhhhh. :P

Also yesterday, I have shown my heroine side again when I got a cry of help from my best friend Autumn. In the past couple of days she has been depressed, I even had to intepret her dreams of her friend's funeral. Now she is happy and is glad that I have rescued her from the depression.

My math midterm was today. And it all turned out 99.99% good! 25 questions of decimals and ratios, it was a piece of chocolate cake! Decimalphobia is gone for good....until the final exam. (insert psycho scream).

Also, last night...I guess my behavior changed. All of the sudden things haven't been what they used to be. I was feeling mixed all day but now my mood is being pissed only. I really really don't want to talk about it here. For whatever happened, I would just stay pissed for days than accepting that I regretted. If I was mad at Adam, we would just kiss and make up right away. :P :D. If it was a best friend, depending on the situation, it was either kiss and make up or I will never be your friend again. But I gotta note on my regrets, though. You'll never know when I will be okay again. *sigh*...Right now I have too many things on my mind right now...and I am wondering if I would be able to regret. (it does sound like I do have a little problem with regretting things.) I'm supposed to be lying in bed right now, even though it's not my bed time yet. But I want to get this overwith.

Oh and BTW, someone said that I might be prego as my life changing news. GET REAL. Whatever. That is not true.

The New Me Is Coming Soon...

Well, to start this Tuesday off, I am feeling happy, pissed off, stressed, and regretful (I really don't want to talk about it). But what I really want to talk about is what will happen to me. Somehow my Spring Break plans have changed. Adam has his Spring Break this week and now there is a chance that I won't be spending it with him (because he is homeschooled.) So, for what and where I will be doing this Spring Break, I won't be at the beach, at La Rumorosa (Spring Break 06 was the worst vacation ever), or at Colton. I won't be at home or online either (probably popping in at times).

So, people, if you are texting me like crazy and spending my prepaid cell minutes wanting to know what will happen to me, please stop, you're abusing my "Text Me In Case Of Emergency" phrase.

Anyways, it turns out that around this month, or maybe next week, I won't be wearing my green-and-black glasses anymore. I have made my decision that I will be doing LASIK eye surgery. You might think (if you have Doctorphobia, like me), that it will mess up my life, but it won't.

But once I learn about it, it does seem a little painful, I even saw a video on youtube on it. And idk if what I am saying is a rumor, that LASIK eye surgery can ruin your eyesight forever.

Well, idk about you guys, but I am willing to take the risk. I am told that I am a natural risk taker. It was now time to leave the glasses behind and not worry about them amymore. I've been wearing glasses since Freshman year and well, I'm in college and I am tired of people saying that I look 15 or 16. I am 18. My friends will be so proud of me that I made the right decision.

Angel Of Mine---Monica

I dedicate this song to my guys who have been there for me and I have been there for them. They are my angels.

When I first saw you I already knew
There was something inside of you
Something I thought that I would never find
Angel of mine

I look at you, lookin' at me
Now I know why they say the best things are free
I'm gonna love you til the end of time
Angel of Mine

What you mean to me you'll never know
Deep inside I need to show
You came into my life sent from above (Sent from above)
When I got a dream such a perfect love
And I won't tell you til the end of time
Angel of Mine (Angel of mine)

Nothing means more to me than what we share
No one in this whole world can ever compare
Last night the way you moved is still on my mind
Angel of Mine

What you mean to me you'll never know
Deep inside I need to show
You came into my life sent from above (Sent from above)
When I got a dream such a perfect love
And I won't tell you til the end of time
Angel of Mine (Angel of mine)

How you changed my world you'll never know
I'm different now, you helped me grow
You came into my life sent from above
When I lost all hope you showed me love
I'm checkin' for ya boy you're right on time
Angel of Mine

I never knew I could feel each moment
As if it were new,
Every breath that I take, the love that I make
I wanna share it with you (you, you, you,you)

You came into my life sent from above (Sent from above)
When I got a dream such a perfect love
And I won't tell you til the end of time
Angel of Mine (Angel of mine)


I look at you lookin' at me
Now I know why they say the best things are free
Gonna Love you til the end of time
Angel of Mine